I think the greatest thing that is wrong with my life right now is that nothing is certain. I've gotten not a single stable thing to grab onto right now, and it is terrifying. I hope things don't turn out as badly as I fear they might -- not just for me, but for my family. I wish I could go into greater detail, but I think that I would be ( Read more... )

I shot in a jack-o-latern dress on last weekend. I almost forgot that Halloween is so soon. I have a feeling that today is going to be rather hectic. Mr. Trenton is being Luigi this year, and when we take him trick-or-treating this evening, I will be wearing a Princess Peach costume. Why is she Princess Peach now? When I was a kid, she was ( Read more... )

I have back one image from another c{Space shoot, but Photobucket has decided to be difficult and not let me upload anything. That's OK! I will be getting more back from that set this evening to share with you. This is the first set I've ever used pasties in. Those on my fanpage on Facebook have already received a preview ( Read more... )

Things that make me cry: being afraid, intense feelings of love, sappy movies, anything sentimental, when bad things happen, music that moves me, loss.

( The List )

It has been a very trying week for me. Monday, I realized that I was getting sick, and Wednesday, I had to miss work because I was so sick that I spent most of my day in bed. I am still ridiculously sick, though, today has been much better than previous days. For this reason, it has been a slow workout week. If I'm feeling up to it later, I'll ( Read more... )

Recently, I've come to the realization that, through the course of my development, I never really had a constructive method of dealing with my problems. When I was in middle school, I pretended to be happy because I was embarrassed to feel any other way. When I was in high school, I dealt with my demons by sobbing, cutting and depriving myself of ( Read more... )

Everyday, I find myself changing, evolving. Some of the changes in my life have been frightening for me, but I feel like those things needed to happen to get me where I'm going ( Read more... )

Tonight, I head to bed early with a heavy heart. I thought that things were getting better, but in a moment, everything came rushing back and fell on top of my head. I didn't ask for it or lead it in, but it found me. I was constantly made to feel worthless for most of the day ( Read more... )

Modeling Updates:

I have three photo shoots booked for the next month. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself, since I do work full-time outside of modeling five days a week, and traveling, even if it's something I enjoy, takes a lot out of me. My most recently booked photoshoot is with Maura Housley. She has shown interest in working with me for a ( Read more... )

I have been trying to branch out and make new friends/reconnect with old ones. I have issues with the way I'm treated sometimes in my immediate circle of friends, and I feel that a change of scenery is probably the best thing for me to do to combat that negative energy ( Read more... )